This is real life — suspended between East and West, between home and foreign land, between language and voicelessness. It is not a simple crossing of borders, but a constant being — summoned and repelled by structural boundaries. In the West, labelled “Asian”; in Asia, marked as a “returned foreigner”. This dual gaze fractures identity, raising the question: in the ongoing process of being named, framed, and defined — what truly endures?
Rather than seeking assimilation or longing for a singular “true belonging”, this is a turn towards creating a new heterotopia — a space outside dominant narratives, shaped by marginalised voices and specific identities. To stay is not to be static, but to be fully present — a form of resistance within a global context that often erases history. It is a deliberate act: to inscribe suppressed experiences into material, image and language, and to give new meaning to the seemingly inert concrete (béton brut) where the rock rests.